sorry no cure

Even with the word sorry..it could not change the fact for wad i had done to him... the sorry word was used since the start with him..for every small matter..afraid he get angry.. i'll profusingly apologize my sry... and soon when the real matter begins.. my sorry is no longer the sorry can be used.. a sorry which had loose its power to have its forgiveness in return... a sorry which cannot bring or in exchange with what i had done.. i lied to him everything.. i twist and turn my words so he wouldn,t find out and so he wont get mad.. but i did wrong... the more lie the more problem the more problem... the lesser the sorry has its power to console.. a sorry who no longer has its cure... a sorry which cannot exchange all the shits a done to him... whats a sorry to him from me? whats the next word for sorry? whats the other word for sorry?